The Irish luck!

My longest relationship to this day was coming to an end I knew I could feel it,  or worse I was not feeling it. My sister and her boyfriend were visiting us for the summer and because he is American he wanted to go to a St Patrick´s party. Well here in Lima is quite unusual because  first we are not irish and well that is it. Yet Miraflores is full of hostels and hostels are full of foreigners who do no need a particular reason to get drunk and wasted so my friend took us to this hostel where they were having a St Patrick´s party. Anyways I asked my boyfriend not to come to dinner with my parents and not to join us at that party either because I was not feeling happy with the way things were going between us. So I asked him for some time to think about whether we should stay togueter or go separate ways.

The poor guy was devastaded not saying it because I am the best thing or anything like that, but I understand now that no matter what, being dumped when you are in love sucks it hurts and it sucks!! Until this day I believe he is the one guy that has loved me the most and that because of him I will never settle with less than TRUE LOVE, sounds corny I know, but it was true, it was honest it was said by his eyes no just by his lips, and he never had trouble saying it either, he always assured me how much he loved me and I did love him as well in the same honest way. I will always love him and the memory of us. And because of him I know how I am supposed to feel when I am in love and the way a guy should look at me when he is in love with me... I wish I had that again, last time I fell in love it was not in his eyes, neither in his words, neither in our love story nowhere but in a couple of drunk calls I know people said that drunk people is honest but I doubt he was being honest I think he was just lonely. And when I told him I loved him I also told him that for that reason we needed to split but that is another story.

Back to my irish luck story, so I got to the bar joined my friends and inmediately a blond guy with the bluest eyes was putting a hat on my head and talk to me in a funny way I did not understand a word. He noticed I did not got him and went back to keep working in the bar. One of my friends thought he was cute I thought he was bauld and yes he had beautiful eyes but he was not particularly hot. He was kind of cute but not really there were so many cute guys that if he would not put that hat on my head I probably would have not noticed him.

Then when I was going to the restroom I notice he was there bringing drinks from the back of the bar, one of my friends was taking pics of everything around us and she said we should take a picture togueter, I said "ok" and he hugged me almost too tight almost against the wall but in a funny way so that I could not help laughing. My other friend also took a pic and add him on FB apparently she liked him or something so they start chatting I saw that he was tagged on the picture and It ocurred to me that it would be a good idea to talk to him to see if he also liked my friend. But he said he did not like her, that actually he was hoping I liked him because he did. I told him I had a boyfriend he told me he had a girlfriend. So yes we were not going to date anytime soon or we should not have done it.

And of course we kept flirting while we chatted, my relationship had already an expiration date I was going to break up with him for sure after his birthday I was going to suck it up until his birthday so he at least had a good birthday. But things kind of happened differently me and the irish guy knew we should not try to be togueter but he was very sweet and for him I was an exotic peruvian girl that a white pale guy like him would not usually be lucky to date (Ok now I am just saying that because I think I am a big deal!) but seriously his girlfriend was way older than me and not really pretty, and It was summer so I was tanned and looking good. I was fun and careless, so of course he would have wanted to cheat on his girlfriend with me. I said I did not wanted to cheat but I did wanted to see him. He wrote the most erotic things someone ever wrote to me without being offensive or sounding like a pervert, he seduced me and the fact we could not be togueter because it was wrong made it more excited. So we decided to meet up while my relationship was on a coma he said he already tried to break up with his girlfriend but she was leaving to Canada soon so it was pointless to ended before she left. I did not have reason not to believed him or in the worst case that he was lying I was not going to do anything but to simply see him.

So I went to the hostel´s bar to meet up some friends and to see him, he was there but also his girlfriend was there, I said hi to him and I felt shy he went to greet me in the reception so they would let me in the bar, I said hi to his girlfriend as well. And sit with my friend and talk about how weird was that, he kept glancing at me and I guess she noticed it. Then I told him a couple of friends were coming and if he could go with me to the reception so they would let them in and so he did we went outside to wait for my friends and finally we were alone, he said he was happy that I came and that the fact his girlfriend was there sucked but that when she will leave we can be togueter all the time. I knew it was wrong very wrong but I did not want to hear more bullshit I just wanted to kiss him. But as I gave him my shy look of please kiss me and shut up. my friends were crossing the street and the moment was gone or so I thought because they went ahead of us to enter the hostel and he pulled me gently and kissed me briefly we both smiled... we both were guilty.

When we chat the day before we agreed that If we would want to have a talk and not to have his girlfriend checking on us we would say we wanted to see rainbows and we will meet in the stairs behind the bar to be alone. And as the drinks kick in, I was feeling like seeing rainbows so I took the courage and went to bar and I said it: R--- I want to see rainbows. He smiled at me he had really gentle eyes, he was very sweet and had a girlfriend and for some reason I did not care. So I went to the stairs and a minute later he was there with me, he hold me not in a funny way like last time but in a passionate way we kiss very passionately for a first kiss and I felt butterflies, when you feel those you are basicly screwed. I also felt his "excitement" when he reached for my knickers his hand under my flower printed dress he was touching my bum and I stopped him he apologyze about it and we needed to go back to the bar. I got more durnk and wanted to see more rainbows so we went back to the stairs we kissed and everytime it was more fun he was a great kisser his hands were rough he had calluses in his hands and I loved them.

We agreed it was wrong that we should wait for his girlfriend to leave and that I should make my break up official so we can hang out without feeling guilty but that was on sunday by monday we were already agreeing on meeting to see a movie that afternoon. We went to the movies and we did not watch the movies of course he managed to take off my bra while we were "watching the movie" I swear I still do not know how noone complaint about us. we were almost on top of each other.

So as we were heading out of the movies my friend called me and said that my boyfriend change his status to single and that I was no longer in a realtionship with him that is on FB of course. At that age FB matter to me more than it does now so I called him and thanked him for making it easy on me. He regreted it, he said if I agree on seeing him he would then put it back and that can we be togueter again because that was all he wanted,  I just hanged up. He just did the ultimate thing to loose me, the thing is I do not like games I know most girls like when the guy ignores her and all that shit but I do not, seriuously I do not go crazy thinking on guys that have not called me back I go crazy for guys that pay attention to me, guys who are always there for me, guys who I can count on, so games to me are a big turn off. Trying to play me just results on me loosing interest and thinking the guy is weird. I know I am not the only I am sure there are a few more girls like me we are rare but we do exist we are partially dudes in girls bodies with some fatal girls problems like what to wear or feeling fat most days.

So I told my irish affair that I was not longer guilty and felt better about the whole thing now we only needed to wait for his girlfriend to leave and so because I live so close to the airport we made plans for our next date being at the airport he would drop his girlfriend at the airport and then go with me to my house. So I went to the airport and wait for him when I finally saw him he was still with her so I hided away then follow them inside and then hided again after 5 minutes he called me and asked where I was I guess the goodbye did not last much I felt bad that I took that away from her, althought I ignored it she was in love with him and he wanted me so badly that he bearly spend time saying goodbye to her. Karma is a bitch so I paid for it.

We went to my house and I already had everything planned to sneak him in my room. I got home and told my mum I was going to take my dog for a walk. (Mother if you ever read this please forgive me for offending your house but you have a really irresponsible daughter, I drink too much yes,  and kiss too many boys and unlike you I am not a saint, thanks god I am sort of smart huh?). Anyways after we took my dog for a walk I confirmed him that my mother was already almost slept so we walk around holding hands and kissing in the street without having to hide and yet was still fun. We went back to my house I closed my mother´s door and she was sleeping as I stimated he was behind me in the stairs I gave him the sign and point to my door so he will enter my room as fast as he could whilst I watched my mother´s door. I played some music and we were kissing and cuddling. It felt very nice until then I never had anyone else in my bed besides my ex.

Soon the kisses were more passionate and this boy was talented at pleasing, a lot of people asked me why I dated him he did not seem like my type but he was my new type I liked his rough hands against my skin it felt manly and I liked the way he was eagor to please me he just wanted me to enjoy he said he wanted to be my slave and I was stunished. He knew exactly how to please me and he did as he described in his text and he took me beyond pleasure. When I woke up the next morning I opened my eyes and found his blue blue eyes finding my eyes and they were so bright it was beautiful a really lovely moment he said he liked me a lot. And we cuddle some more than we did have sex because all night he only pleasure me not once tried to get anything from me and so I let myself go with him. We spent all morning togueter I made breakfast for him and I was not as cautious as I am now when it comes to boys so I let myself go with him, I even thought of actually being in a relationship with him because I really liked him then I sang to him, I did not wanted him to see me while I was singing because I am very shy so stick the lyrics with the chords in his big forehead and play with my eyes close most of the time. I was flushing and my cheeks burned after I finished singing he did not said anything he just removed the paper from his forehead and stared at me. I blushed more and he told me he really like the song, but more important he said he really like me and with those sweet eyes I felt he reallly really liked me.

But after that day I never felt that again with him, that day I felt we could be togueter but then he got weird we saw each other a few more times and I took him to my room one more time but this time was just sex last time was like a really sweet night, and he kind of start bullshitting me so I lost interest and told him I had feelings for him but if he did not like me in the same way it was fine we could remain friends. So I stop going to the bar but came back a few weeks later then when I saw him again we hooked up and I told him that I did not understand why he let me go and why could not we just be friends with benefit and he said it was because he was falling in love with me and that is why he let me go, and I told him BULLSHIT!!! and left mad. I hate BULLSHIT!!! I do!!! why guys feel the need to give me bullshit please just hit me with true I enjoyed it and true does not offend me, a simple: "sorry I was recently single and you seemed to be looking for a boyfriend and I work in a bar full of plenty drunk girls throughing themselves to me so being single is awesome for me right now" and yes probably I would not like it, but it wont make me go away, you have no idea how fun it would had been. I like guys that are honest they are rare but there are a few guys like that I know I have met a couple and we did have lots of fun.

I left to Mancora a beach town in Peru, I went there to celebrate that I was single to celebrate I passed all my classes even thought I start working full time, and to have fun in a girls trip and of course I was going to stay at a hostel. My friend lost her ID and could not board on time so ended up going alone. I needed to call the hostel to cancel my first night because I was going to spend first night in the city in a fancy hotel my syster booked for me and I talk to the irish to ask him for the phone number he said : I miss you do not go on your own to that place better be with me. I looked at what was written in my screen and showed him my middle firnger I thank him for the info and left to party with a friend and yes we use my king size bed in the fancy hotel. I guess he did not wanted me to go because a girl on her own between so many foreigners will realize how popular she can be when she is drunk and on her own. And I guess he liked me because I was with just one guy before him. Well a week after I talk to him again to see if it was ok that I went to the bar, he said yes and he did wanted to see me again... I showed him my finger again, then 2 days before I went to the bar he wrotte he had a girlfriend now and it was kind of serious and that  we should just be friends. I looked at the screen and instead of showing him my finger and went get coffee and thought for a while about what to reply to this bastard. And so I wrote: We were always just friends. See you soon, I still get free drinks right?

I went and I saw him with his new girlfriend she was not old like the other one neither was she ugly she was quite nice, and yes she was skinnier than me, though she had a big forehead not as big as his but they will have kids with big foreheads. He was all over her and it made me unconfortable and just as I was deciding to leave a girl and 2 boys approach our table we started talking and I start flirting with one of the boys they were younger than me but I did not care he was very smart and he had a deep voice and I liked him a lot he was funny too and he help me go through that akward moment quite gracefully, yes he had I knew girlfriend but guess who was single and having more fun than ever. Yes it hurted me that the Irish got so involved with a girl he only just met just a while after he said he rather be single because that "I was falling for you" was just I WANT TO BE SINGLE statement, but what it hurted the most was that NO that bastard would not give me free drinks anymore!! Shit it hurts to pay for alcohol when you are girl who never had to do it because boys will normally buy it for you. Yes it might sound spoiled but to be fair the guy I met that night bought me drinks I just had to buy the first one.And that guy also became a really good friend he did not Bullshit me I even visited him in his country and will always think he is smart kid.

And yes that is the Irish Luck or unluck, I guess... I am only know he played me not sure he played me as much as he pretend he will, but I deserved it I was bad. And he was not by anymeans a good guy. Soon I found out he made the canadian girl send him money because he was broke, and while he got his new girlfriend he was still with his old one they never broke up, poor girl found out on FB about this new relationship and that was not the worst part. The worst part is that this new girl and him got engaged a couple of months after they met and, oh not saying he does not love the new girl but it was quite convenient that she lived alone and he needed a place to stay because he was broke and planning to stay in Lima, you see is not often a young girl in Lima lives on her own we usually stay at our parents until we get married. He got a job teaching English and the new girlfriend start working at a new hostel where coincidently I ended up working at and so we became I guess "friends" I called my ex a couple times for him to pick me up so she will see him and think that I was still in love with him and that she had nothing to worry about me and her now husband.

It was so ackward but that is just my luck, last thing I knew from them after she got fired from the hostel. Is that finally he took her to Ireland because most peruvians apparently can not wait to leave Peru. Well not sure where they are or what are they doing but after she got fired she came to talk to me in the hostel and ask me about me and his now husband. I knew she knew so I just told her it was nothing serious and that he was just a rebound because I was still upset from my ex. It was true and lies togueter but then she told me about he doing that to the canadian girl about not breaking up with her not asking her for money that is something a friend who knew both told me.

I was happy I skipped that bullet because it was clear to me now, I finally understood why he let me go. I was not excited when he mentioned our kids will have my skin color and his blue eyes and they would be beautiful... I said please do not make me pregnant. He wanted to stay in Peru so he needed someone to start a life with and I was hardly at that stage, not sure how a girl my age back then could be speacilly with a stranger and I think his now wife is very stupid I am sure they love each other but she is weird to remain with a guy like that and he is just full of BULLSHIT full of it.

But whatever makes them happy, I just wished the canadian girl has found a new boyfriend one that is hot and worthy of her. And I had my karma for cheading, that and then some more. I am sorry,
I am I wish I could tell her or maybe is better is an unnecesary pain she would have not need... but then that is just BULLSHIT from me.

So I guess it needed o be four leafs to be lucky... is good reminder of why I do not like games though.